Goodbye Baby Boy

Dearest Sparky,

A little over 4 years ago you found your way into our lives. It truly was something that was written in the stars. We fell in love at first sight & knew you had to be ours. From that moment on our house had become a home & you were our first child. You touched our hearts in more way than we can ever express.

Over the years you have been by my side through so many ups & downs. My navigator in troubled waters. My copilot through happy joyrides & adventures. My best friend in this crazy journey called life. You have touched my heart in a way no one will ever be able to replace.

The reality is you were sick & having more & more discombobulated moments where you seemed to not recognize us. Bobby & I know you didn't mean to attack us. You were just confused. When you would have your lucid moments you knew you were in a safe place & were very loved by all of us. Every time you went to that scary place it broke a tiny piece of my heart off to never return.

In the end I was there to remind you how much you were loved & always will be. To remind you that you are my champion, my super hero, & my best friend. I watched you be at peace with a decision that was tearing daddy & I apart. Every tear that we have shed has been a drop in the bucket of magic you brought to us.

We never realized until you were already gone that when we saved you, you saved us. You taught us it was OK to love again no matter how much pain & scars we had from the past. You helped us welcome Bobby into this world. You picked Tiger out for us as if knowing one day he would be here to protect us when you couldn't. We were blessed to have you touch our lives.

As we mourn your passing we know you are in a better place then you have been recently. Your mind & body doesn't hurt anymore. You accomplished amazing things in your time here on Earth. I have cried you a river & will continue to make it an ocean over the next few days. I feel incomplete without you by my side. I will forever have a tiny hole in my heart from losing you.

With all that said I did smile this morning when we saw that the birds nest you always harassed had its first hatchling this morning. I firmly believe in that baby bird is a tiny piece of you & you will be able to fly. I also believe that will be the bird that comes back next year to restart the cycle in the spring & so we can see you again. Good luck my friend & fly high. We will see you again soon.

I love you with every ounce of my being, Sparky! Never forget that.

Eternally Yours,
Mommy