Reality Check

Sparky: As our faithful friends out in blogger world may have noticed we have been a little lax in our blogging lately. In a perfect world we would blog every day with something witty, comical, or happy. The reality is we don't live in a perfect world & sometimes life just sucks. There is no punchline to make bad things funny & forgotten. There is no closure at the 52 minute mark & everything is peachy again. Of course with that said life doesn't always suck dishwater either.

With the weather being so wacky here (sometimes 30+ degree difference from day to day) it has hit mommy hard. Some days she has been so tired we just lay around & chill. Others the guilt of so many down days has us out & about doing tons of things. The hard part for our mommy is the fact that her fatigue effects her legs. One weekend during our bloggy break mommy really over did it & had to be carried out to the car by her coworkers. Needless to say the embarrassment was very abundant but the looming concern of repeated issues causes a greater concern. With the ever growing fear of which time is the leg issue not going to go away mommy has finally swallowed her pride & agreed to physical therapy. In P/T mommy will be taught how to use a wheelchair, walker & other assisted devices. She has also had to change her work schedule yet again & has reduced her hours even further. If you know our mommy then you know all this has put her in a funk of gloom. Well it is time to put the big girl panties back on & continue forward. Most of the time mommy has adopted daddy's attitude about her illness: we will handle it when it happens. We do try to make the most of the good days. You can never have to many good memories to reflect on in dark times :-)

While we are on the health topic we need to talk about a few other things. Daddy has finally gotten a referral for general surgery for his back. Hopefully they will be able to do something not too invasive to alleviate his pain & intermittent numbness/tingling. Mommy's concern at this point is a medical discharge from the military as a result of this issue. She is probably overreacting. I guess we will have to wait & see. Last update mommy got on Auntie Jan was that she is really sick & having to see the doctors several times a week. Uncle Bill had told mommy that only 1 type of the cancer is responding to treatment. We really do wish her better days & less pain. We would love to wish her better but we don't know if that is a reality anymore. We also recently found out that Great Grandmother is supposed to see the cardiologist, but is refusing to make the appointment. Mommy tried to talk to her about it yesterday, but was met with fierce determination & refusal. Great Grandmother's reasoning is she feels fine so why should she go. Of course we don't know why her PCM wants her to see the Cardiologist. This kind of deflated mommy's argument. I will say that mommy's stubbornness & adamant change of subject is definitely genetic. If you have any doubts then you should come to a family gathering sometime & try to tell one of her family members something they don't want to hear. You will never have another doubt ;-)

We really aren't trying to be downers, but part of the process for moving on is admitting the issue. Blogging on a public site is a very big way to admit things, but it helps get it out. The reality is life is hard but it is your attitude & strength that gets you through. We may have hit troubled water again & this surely won't be that last time yet we couldn't be more thankful for all that we have. We have more blessings than a lot of people. We have wonderful friends & support. Mommy has great doctors that will do everything they can to help her with her illness. Daddy has mommy's stubbornness & persistence to make sure he gets the care he needs. My parents have our furry love & we have theirs. All of us have Bobby which is the biggest blessing ever. Sure the terrible twos are challenging but their is no love like that of a child. It makes everything more bearable. We love you Bobby :-)