Heavy Hearted

Robert: As the days go on mommy has become more & more distant... so many thoughts & scenarios have been playing on her mind with our current situation. Mommy has gone through a whole myriad of emotions in the last week: happy because the MS attack is finally getting better, sad because she feels she has missed so much time with me over the past few weeks & because she doesn't know what the right answer to our current issue is, angry because she watches other people be mean parents, bad spouses, careless partners & it makes life seem unfair. Mommy & daddy are good parents. They know they aren't perfect, but they are very interactive with all of us & genuinely care about us. With all of that said it makes mommy upset to look at some of our neighbors that don't pay attention to their kids, treat them like a nuisance, cheat on their spouses then turn around & pop out more & more healthy kids that they are going to neglect. All the while they are healthy & able to be interactive but choose not to be. It makes mommy question God & the Universe. It makes things seem unfair some days. Thankfully mommy has a super cool friend that somehow managed to see this frame of mind being inevitable. She gave mommy a book called "Where is God When it Hurts?" right around the time mommy was diagnosed with MS. Now anyone that knows our mommy knows she is not a big religious person so this book has safely resided on mommy's night stand for a few months. Mommy will see it & have the thought "I really should read that soon" then never follows through. Well mommy finally cracked it open last night when she was very upset. It isn't so much that mommy is becoming super religious or anything. It is more that now seems to be a time that mommy is more open to hear what the book will tell her & needs to hear it's advice now to help her process a lot of what is going on. My brothers & I want to send a special thank you to our super thoughtful friend for her clairvoyance & providing something that will help mommy with her heavy heart. On a side note mommy is off to the doctors on Tuesday to start he OB process. No, a final decision has not been made but this is definitely a problem procrastination & avoidance will complicate. Mommy also hopes that maybe someone will be able to give us answers to our many questions since we have been unsuccessful so far. We will keep you posted. Have a great weekend!