Troubled Waters

Robert: It is with a heavy heart that I inform everyone that mommy had a very rough weekend. After Friday's ER trip she had another episode of paralysis with trouble breathing, vision loss, & choking. Originally we weren't going to say what is going on but this blog is mommy's way of coping with things & the secrecy is taking a big toll on her mentally. Friday the doctors discovered mommy is pregnant. As a result this is causing a whirlwind of problems. One thing with MS is that attacks can be caused when there is an imbalance in your body like a cold, infection, pregnancy, etc. The other thing is mommy is only about 4 WEEKS along & it is already this bad. From mommy's internet research the MS attacks won't end until the 2nd trimester begins. After that there is a chance mommy will have a major attack after the baby is born. mommy is having a very hard time dealing with the fact that she hasn't been able to take care of me or even just play with me.

The next issue is daddy. Daddy is having a lot of trouble dealing with mommy being sick. I know a lot of people think daddy is being selfish but mommy is starting to see a bigger picture. 1st off daddy doesn't want mommy to keep the baby. Part of his reasoning is because of how my grandma treated him after his sister was born. Daddy & Aunt Angie are very close in age but hate each other. Apparently daddy still has some major issues with this. Mommy & I don't know the whole story, but what we do know is a little mind boggling. Mommy is still having problems wrapping her mind around daddy's comment that we can't have another baby so close together because mommy won't love me anymore. Mommy is really thinking about making daddy an appointment with a therapist. Mommy has felt this way since we came home from Seattle & daddy has been experiencing so many problems dealing with life. I think the problems we encountered were too much for daddy to handle without some professional help. Now don't get me wrong we don't think daddy is a whack job or anything like that but we do feel that maybe it is time for someone who is trained at dealing with the emotional issues to step in & help daddy.

Moving on... mommy goes to see Dr. Hegde on Wednesday afternoon. I think right now mommy is going to go with daddy & decide to terminate the pregnancy. Now I know this is probably going to cause a big explosion of issues with people's beliefs but if you understood how poor mommy's quality of life has been for the past 2 weeks you might understand a little more. My parents are also talking about daddy getting a vasectomy. It isn't that my parents don't like the idea of ever having another child. I think this month has been a huge education on the fact that mommy's body may not be able to handle doing this again. My family feels it is way more important to have a healthier mommy around then a permanently broken one. With that said my parents have agreed to wait to make a final decision until after mommy's doctor appointment. We will keep you posted